Joan of Arc's Blog

What helped me was venting through poems, even if my legs were feeling numb and my head was hurting or even if I felt puky, I could put a lap top on my knees and plug away some poetry.

I ended up with some that actually made sense and I made it into a book. Hang in there you guys, you
can all live through this. It's harder than anything I've ever had to deal with in my life, and probably the same for you too. Look at it like a challenge. Just do your best and let the chips fall. Decide who you want to be and then be it no matter pain, ectesy, threats, real scary situations, etc.. And no, I'm not perfect. This helped me but I am human and I faulted plenty. That is were repenting to God, or forgiving oneself comes in. You have to forgive yourself.. You ARE being told to do X and if you don't do X bad things happen. I know, been there did or did not do X. I also often bit off more than I could chew.. I'd be like Oh yeah,,, Give me x , y, and z,,, and then the voices would and I'd be a world of hurt. Everytime I recover a little bit, I get mad that they are even in my space and challenge them. I have to quit doing that and just chill. Don't you think?