Stuart's Blog

today i went to the shop myself for presents and i was surprized because i wasnt scared and paranoid and people werent talking about me or looking at me, this was the first time i have went out myself for ages and i felt alright i just tried to think of things to buy and had a real good look about , so maybe im doing something right but apart from that i have been taking a bit more of my tablets i just wish i could look forward to christmas and get excited about it or something its been a while since these feelings have came to me i tryed to take antidepressants but had an adverse reaction to them resulting in hospitalization so am not taking them again.i had lasangne for dinner and i left my relaxation tape at my mums so i can feel the difference. i just had a bath because i am getting a haircut tommorow and hope it goes well ,i hate getting my hair cut and everything that goes with it because of the social aspect of it.