Stuart's Blog

hi, i havent really done much over the past two days i've been in bed but i did listen to my relaxation tape but it didnt really help i guess i just need more practice, my girlfriend took her seroquel yesterday and today and she was driving aswell just to see if she could but she's just took 50mg and she says she isn't taking anymore because they make her feel less alive i think i know how she feels i dont get alot of pleasures in life everything just seems like an obstacle to me and thats why i am thinking about changing to abilify that and the wieght gain i just seem to be getting more and more bloated, i am a bit worried however my cpn says most people go into hospital for med change and i hope i dont get hospitalized, what would be great would be no bad thoughts or fear or panic thats the things i think i'm going to experiance in change over but i dont know, i will have alot of support and i will be staying at my mums house for however long it takes and my girlfriend will have to come up and visit, when i'm stable enough i'm hoping to get back into the horses again if the group is still on i think they got a lottery grant so hopefully it is it was really good i was racing in and out of the poles on a horse and i really enjoy it to an extent i will also have the chance to do voluntary work cleaning the stables and things and its just around the corner from my girlfriends house aswell.