Stuart's Blog

hi everyone,i forgot to write about my visit to the gp yesterday i dont think i was with it very much but i went on monday and the doc told me my dizziness was probably pre-faint or the start of a really bad migraine it felt like i was about to faint anyway so she was sneezing and i got the cold/flu from her but its not her fault she couldn't help it.i was breathing well last night slow and steady,i was a bit scared though that i might stop breathing but didn't panic,i replied to a post and the girl said she could relate to what i said because i really dont think these things just happen, i think one thing leads to another and you end up somewhere you dont want to be and get stuck then you spend the rest of the time trying to get back to the beginning of when it all happened and hopefully you can stay that way,i'm hoping i can stop my anxiety and maybe it will be that i stop my schiz at the same time because i think there all related to each other in some way or an other.i am going to put my relaxation cd on tonight.i allways find it hard to reply to posts i dont know why maybe i just can't relate to them or i think that i'm not a member of there club or something anyway i get really paranoid about my posts so i am trying to take it really slowly and not to make me feel so bad about it also i cant think of any more poems its just a blank so thats not good and i dont want to make a fool of myself.
wishing you the best of health,stuart189