The Crazy Cub Stories

When my psychotic symptoms started and began to evolve, resulting in my first hospitalization of four in seven months, I was tried on a low dose of Risperdal, at personal request. The hallucinatory voices disappeared but my delusional thinking lingered. I hated the Risperdal and the idea of medications, so I started to have medication compliance issues...

When I didn't take the Risperdal, my voices came back and the delusions increased. My old doctor, Doctor David Hall, a somewhat famous doctor here in Seattle increased the Risperdal. Then I suggested we quit the Risperdal due to my having nightmares. The psychosis of course came back. So we increased the Risperdal, once again. But then the paranoia started, and everything lost it's happiness as I was increasingly losing my mind. We suggested switching to Abilify, which was a disaster. I didn't sleep, I had muscle stiffness, tremors and nausea at 5 mg. Unbelievable.

So we continued with the Risperdal going up to 4 mg. to no avail. At that point we considered Geodon, the drug I'm on now. We increased rather fast but it was working beautifully. Then the shit came down...

I was sleepy all day due to the Geodon, since we had to increase it up to 200 mg. which I'm told is a pretty fucking high dose. I still do have sleepiness but what's better? Homicidal/Suicidal psychosis or some sedation.

Geodon works for me now and perhaps will continue to work...