July 27, 2004

hey

"You have made me a keeper of vineyards, yet my own vineyard I have not kept." ~Song of Solomon.

How true that is of my life.

I am reading the book "Hidden Victims, Hidden Healers" by Julie Tallard Johnson. When I first started reading this book, I thought it was all going to be over my head. But I pressed on further into the book. Boy, am I glad that I did. This is a wonderful book that contains "an eight-stage healing process for families and friends of the mentally ill."
On the back of the book it says "Hidden Victims will help you realize that there are alternatives to common patterns of coping. You CAN care for your mentally ill loved one without losing sight of your own needs."
If you get the chance to read it, please do. I am feeling a bit better, more peaceful after beginning the book and reading ways to cope.

I am a long way from well however and the waves of depression sweep over me from out of no where. It is the most awful feeling that I have ever felt. I feel like falling to my knees and begging for comfort and peace.

M. is trying to help me. It is taxing on him, but he is trying. I am afraid that sometimes he is overwhelmed with my problems. But frankly, I have no where else to turn. I am trying to focus internally and find peace there.
If you pray, please add me to your list.

Posted by Jamie at July 27, 2004 11:08 PM | TrackBack

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It can be very hard sometimes - I just prayed for you.

Not much else to say, but I know how you feel - glad to hear you might be finding some ways to cope, I still have a ways to go in that area.

Posted by: Louie at July 31, 2004 06:31 AM

I know how you feel about getting down on your knees. I don't know how I am still here alot.. I prayed for you too. I can't believe this is not commented on any more than it has been. It is in a good line of traffic and I know alot of people suffer from depression.

Posted by: del at December 14, 2005 10:56 AM

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