February 22, 2008
Wait! Erase Everything!
You know I wish I could erase everything on my website. I wish I could chuck it all and start over again. I mean people change and I am not the same I was a year ago or four years ago. I don't want to get comments on really old blogs. I mean get over it already.
Oh woest me! I went to working full time. They even have me doing over 40 hours a week and I want to crater. They need to hire more weekend staff and so I am having to cover a bit of the early shift and the late shift as well as the 9-5 shift. I am due at work at 7:30 a.m. and to get off at 8 or 9 at night. Hah! I might crack doing these hours. I don't get overtime for this because they switch billing agencies before 9 a.m. and after 5 p.m. So I also have to go in on one of my days off to accompany my client to the dr this Thursday. I am going to try to arrange for assistance with these hours from another staff member.
I am going to try to arrange a dinner group this weekend at a restaurant. I have barely seen friends lately and this would lift all of our spirits.
On Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I accompany my client to a clinic and then I have 3 hours to kill in a small town. This past Wednesday I went around with a lady who waits alone in the lobby for her husband on these three week days. The two of us went to a grocery store so that she could get a papaya and she went with me so I could get a coffee. I want to find this really excellent tamale company there. I have been there before and need to find it again.
I sat and read during the last hour and a half there. I am reading The House on Mango Street. I almost read the whole book on Wednesday. It is very good. I am so happy that I am able to read again. Before I didn't care how thick the book was; I would just read it and I wouldn't care how long it took me. I want to find something else that I can sink my teeth into. I have never read Saving Fish From Drowning yet. I have it and might just might try to pick through it.
I went and bought a new mp3 player. (My other one was stolen.) I am so thrilled that I finally spent the money on myself. Now I hope I can upload songs onto it soon.
I have been wanting to go to Amoeba Records in Hollywood lately but haven't had the time or energy. I also intend to go see a photo exhibit at the Getty; but same story there. We were having some really great weather earlier in the month and now we are having wintery stuff again. Rain through Sunday at least. I can't wait till it is time to spring forward our clocks. It is almost here!!!
I will begin receiving medical benefits from work in June I beleive. That is if I can maintain these insane hours they are dealing me.
So I find myself fragmented these days and I pick up things from stores and restaurants in between doing things in the community for my client. I guess soon the hours will mellow out a bit.
I just finished a book called Angels 101. It was very good. I was thinking about my shrink and thinking that she must have issues with God because she gave me one on those magical thinking analysis things when I told her that I was reading a book on psychics. She asked what I was reading and I told her. Simple as that. She is a horse's ass I swear. Wouldn't you call that culturally insensitive? They are always talking about how clinicians should be cultually sensitive but honestly I don't see it happening. My therapist actually assumed that I wanted to take a screenwriting class but that I had no intention of getting anything produced. I thought well now I know how she feels about her clients. We can't acheive anything in her eyes.
