The Joy of Madness

I'm excited today

The weekend is over and I survived. I didn't pick up my lexapro on Thursday or Friday and really suffered over the weekend because of it. I really think that the county should contract with pharmacies that provide service on the weekends. Weekends are really hard sometimes because I feel pressure to do more. Sometimes there is nowhere to go or I don't have money to do anything. I am suffering from seasonal affective disorder and so it is hard to stay awake past 3pm. Yesterday felt like winter for the first time. It was cold, dark, and blustery. I thought it might snow.

I applied for financial aid for education and hopefully will hear back from them soon.

I am reading a book on complementary medicine for the mind. It mentions light therapy and tai chi amongst other things. I put a lamp on my amazon wishlist. I should start using my Y membership to do tai chi. I had been waiting for someone to go with me; but I don't think that that is going to happen.

I've got a few job leads so I'm happy about that. There are a few parties for me to go to in December. My friend a 60 year old wanted to take me to the nutcracker at $35 per ticket but then he called up (after we had poker all night)and said he couldn't see me anymore because all I care about is the money. He basically called me a gold digger. He was being paranoid and he still hasn't called me back. My friend H. has been psychotic for a month and has been hard to reach. I have another friend who can only take two Haldols because it causes him pain to take the three he needs. He has Tardive Dyskinesia in his neck and shoulder. He doesn't function very well which is indicated by the fact that his main activity is travelliing from one coffee shop to the next all day and some of the night. He is very intelligent. His first language is Persian, he is fluent in English, and he is reading novels in Spanish. I have to go eat now.

Posted by Butterfly Emerging at November 22, 2004 02:40 PM | TrackBack