The Joy of Madness

Christmas Day

I have felt quite groggy lately and I don't know whether it is the Lithobid or the Paxil. The Lithium is making my hand shake quite a bit. I can't go on taking these dosages. I got a light box for Christmas and I can't wait to use it.

I am trying to decide whether to study online or go to college on a campus. I sent in my state disability form so maybe I will get the money soon. They said they would give me until June 2006. I must have my Student Aid report sent to the university. If I took classes at the local university then I could enroll in P.E. and be forced to exercize. I am getting too lazy about it. I think I lack 24 credits; but I'm not positive. I don't know what to do accept tutor when I am finished with my degree. I am considering being an intern as a case manager. That is the best way I can think to get a skill.

I went to Merced and Yosemite over the past few days. I had a blast! My Mom and I went to visit my Great Aunt Evalyn and my two second cousins. That turned out to be really interesting because my cousin Charlene and my Aunt both write poetry and they read some. There is some mental illness in that part of the family. My Great uncle was mentally ill although I'm only related to him by marriage. He had a co-occuring disorder and eventually committed suicide. One of my Aunt's children had Schizophrenia.

I'm writing down information about the lives of my relatives so that I can write stories later. I need guidance with the stories though. A class would be good for that. I've decided to write the story of my first hospitalization. It is about time. I had a near death experience there.

Posted by Butterfly Emerging at December 26, 2004 05:17 AM | TrackBack