The Joy of Madness

Change of Heart

I decided not to move to Texas. My Mom thinks that she can assist me some more so that I can stay here. That is such a relief because I was really getting depressed at the prospect of leaving my home of 20 years. I have no friends in Texas and don't know the resources there. Mt mom wants me to visit her every two months or so.

My mom bought me a bus pass and so now I can get to my biopsy on Tuesday. I had to reschedule it. It is at 11:00 a.m. I called a so-called friend and asked for a ride to last Monday's biopsy appointment and she said she couldn't do it. I am in a lot of pain everyday now and feel very sleepy. My mom believes that even if there is no cancer that I will still need surgery.

My friend Fardin checked out a book for me from the public library on the Bahai faith. He is Bahai and I have expressed an interest in learning more about it. We had coffee on Wednesday. My friend Ron came by for a little while on Wednesday. That was nice. Then I went to eat Thai food with my Mom. Yesterday my friend Christian came to return cds and I made him dinner. Today I will most likely only be able to go to therapy. I should have gone to pick up my prescriptions at the pharmacy; but I am not up to it.

I signed up to go to a Link Up event on Sunday. We are supposed to meet at The Getty Center at 11:00 and have lunch. We will also go visit the galleries. I hope I am able to go. I also want to attend a meeting for a photography group which meets in West Hollywood to share the results of a photography assignment. This assignment is dreams. I thought I might show my aspirations in pictures. I must buy a battery for my camera.

My friend Christian thought it would be a cool thing if we could rent my Mom's house while she is in Texas. I started thinking about it and I think it would be a good idea. I don't know if she would go for it though. It would have to be 3-4 people though since I think her mortgage is high. Her house has 4 bedrooms. I don't know.

Posted by Butterfly Emerging at April 7, 2006 09:21 PM