The Joy of Madness

Snap, Crackle, Pop Goes my life

I am thrilled (I suppose) that I don't have cancer. I mean at least I don't have to go through chemo. I still have this cyst though and am in pain daily. The Dr. says to go in to have another ultrasound at the end of May to check it again. I would rather deal with it through supplements and nutrition than through a radical surgery. I plan on asking the dr. about natural progesterone cream. I am really thankful that my friends have been as supportive as they have been through all this. They have been quite concerned.

I saw Athena and Victor yesterday and Athena and I went to a big park together and rode the peddle boats. She had ice cream and played on the playground. We saw lots of birds and dogs. We rode the orange line which is a new bus way that runs through an old train route. Victor says that it reminds him of a worm because it is silver and has an extender in the center which looks like worm segments. It is able to twist to the left and the right with more mobility than a bus or a train. Athena really thought the orange line was fun. She would like to return to the park soon to roller skate. I told her that I would ride a bike while she skates. I had originally planned to go to the earth day festival but when we got there she said that she would rather go to the other park next door.

On Friday I saw my friend Tina and I went to Balboa Lake with her too. We walked the circumference of the large lake twice. We met in a day treatment program and say that we met in high school. We always do something for our birthdays since we celebrate them five days apart.

I don't think my friend and I are going to get the apartment together after all because we don't qualify by income. Maybe something else will come up though. I saw a mobile home for sale for $70,000. The payment would be around $400 per month; but then you must pay the space rent which can be $700 per month. So we would have to earn $3,300 per month total to qualify. I earn under $900 per month.

I am having some asthma but don't have an inhaler right now. I think I have maxed out my medi-cal plan this month. I thought I was supposed to have seen my shrink on last Wednesday; but it turns out that he skipped a week in scheduling me so I am seeing him on the fifth week instead of the fourth week. This caused a little snafu with my Lexapro and I had to see the nurse at the clinic to get an extension on that pill. The pharmacy is so chintzy. They only gave me enough to hold me through Wednesday. That means that Thursday I will go without. I read in the paper that the county of Los Angeles is cutting the mental health budget by $48,000,000. That really bites like a big dog. How does that mean we will fare getting our medications? What about therapy?

I see Fardin for coffee tomorrow and then off to therapy. Today I am not doing anything but listening to the radio and cleaning the house. Also, I have perusing the real estate online.

I picked up the application forms for the peer counseling class. I am planning on taking it. I will return the forms tomorrow or Tuesday. I saw online that the county pays 11.70-17.50 per hour for peer support positions. Since the course lasts until Fall I will have time to recuperate from the pain and all. The class is only Tuesdays and Thursdays from 3:00- 5:30. I did some research on the wages of Massage Therapists and found out that they don't earn that much. I don't want to add to my student debt if there are no jobs or low wages. The physical therapy assistant programs (an A.A. degree) are not offered in my area and the shorter program called pysical therapy aide doesn't qualify you to pass the state license. I was figuring the yearly salary of the peer counselor though and they don't even make enough to qualify me for that Housing and Urban Development apartment. For that two bedroom they wanted $31,000 per year.

Posted by Butterfly Emerging at April 23, 2006 11:53 PM