Silent Storms

Down again and up again - have some coffee

Again. I must apologize. And thank you for all your kind comments and thoughts. My disasters no longer happen in threes. They have started happening in thousands.

A tad negative, I know. Especially for someone who is supposed to have it all figured out. I mean, that's what I started this for. To help people through my 10+ years of experience living with a person who doesn't always know how to respect me.

And there's the problem. Respect. We've had a very up and down week, Darling and I (hence the title), and I've been in bed three more days with a hearing problem that developed from my flu (this is better now, thank the Force and my doctor). But my problem is the respect, or rather lack thereof, that I have for Darling when he turns bad. This is the one area of our lives together where I still need work.

But maybe my problem is one of focus. Having had a negatively inclined disposition nearly since birth, it is very difficult for me to see any good in adversity. But the positive thought site I mentioned last time must have had some influence. Because I find myself thinking this like, well, at least he's not doing some of the other irritating things he used to. At least I'm better. At least I can hear. I can speak. I can write. I can walk. I still am.

And at least sometimes I'm totally in love. Some people never have that.

So I'm going to pour a cup of coffee now, and thank whatever forces rule my reality that I can taste and touch and feel. And that I have the intelligence to figure out how to make this work. The alternative is simply unthinkable.

Posted by cathi at May 11, 2004 07:29 AM | TrackBack