A Daughter's Story

DAD HAS PASSED AWAY(MR. WRIGHT MARCH 1, 1935-SEPTEMBER 27, 2006)

GOOD MORNING TO EVERYONE OF YOU...

IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO WRITE THIS. MY SLEEP PATTERN IS OFF. I HAVE BEEN IN THIS CHAIR HALF OF THIS NIGHT. I WILL LAY DOWN IN A FEW MINUTES. I AM DEALING WITH SIBLINGS WHO DID NOTHING TO HELP ME WITH MY DAD AND NOT HE HAS NOT A BREATH OF LIFE IN HIM. HE HAS BEEN IN THE MORGUE SINCE WEDNESDAY. HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL? I TOLD ALL OF YOU THAT SCHIZOPHRENIA WOULD TAKE A PERSON AWAY FROM HERE. OH, BUT SOME FOLKS DON'T BELIEVE THAT.

IT DOES NOT SEEM FAIR. MY OTHER HALF IS GONE. I FEEL EMPTY AND ALL ALONE. I COULD NOT HELP MY DAD IN THE FINAL CHAPTER OF HIS LIFE. HE DID NOT WANT TO BE HELPED. HIS FOOT BEING INFECTED HE COULD NO LONGER DEAL WITH. LIFE BECAME UNBEARABLE FOR HIM. HE COULD NOT DO ALL OF THE WALKING THAT HE HAD BECOME ADJUSTED TO DOING. HE COULD NO LONGER SEE ALL OF HIS FRIENDS DOWNTOWN IN THE STORES HE HAD MET, LOOKING FOR ME. HE HAD SUCH EXTREME MANIA SOMETIMES. I HAD TO STAY AWAY SOMETIMES FOR FEAR THE MANIA WOULD RUB OFF ON ME.

WELL, I NEED TO STAY ON THIS SITE A LITTLE LONGER TO GATHER ALL OF THE NOTES FROM MY PRIOR POSTS, TO LEARN MORE ABOUT THE DISEASE IN BEHALF OF MY FATHER, TO WRITE MY BOOK ON BEHALF OF MY FATHER, THE MEMOIR THAT I HAD STARTED.

I THANK THE WEBMASTER(BRIAN) FOR ALLOWING ME SINCE 2004 TO KEEP THIS BLOG FOR NOW I KEEP FIVE BLOGS ON DIFFERENT SUBJECTS INCLUDING ONE ON BIPOLAR DISEASE FOR MYSELF. I WILL CONTINUE TO TAKE MY MEDICATIONS AS LONG AS I LIVE JUST AS I HAVE BEEN DOING. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE MY FATHER, HE WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART AS LONG AS I LIVE....LET ME MOURN A LITTE WHILE. I WILL BE BACK IN A FEW WEEKS. THE FUNERAL IS THIS WEDNESDAY, OCTOBER 4TH.

PEOPLE WITH SCHIZOPHRENIA PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE TAKE YOUR MEDS, AND IF YOU ARE ON ABILIFY AND YOU NEED THAT, TAKE IT. IF YOU ARE ON ARICEPT, TAKE IT. CARETAKERS AND FAMILY MEMBERS ENCOURAGE YOUR LOVE ONES TO TAKE THEIR MEDS. SCHIZOPHRENIA EVENTUALLY TOOK MY DAD AWAY FROM HERE WHEN IT DID NOT HAVE TO. AND I DID NOT SAY GOOD BYE FOR I ALLOWED HIM TO PLAY THE ISOLATION GAME. (SEE PRIOR POST)

NATIONAL MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH (OCTOBER)

DAUGHTER FIRSTBORN (SHARON D. WRIGHT)