My life's Adventure

A symptom I have some opinions about.

Paranoia is a major problem in our world. Some would argue paranoia is a form of thought that one should encourage as it is a form of smart thinking that allows one to find out hidden relationships that could be dangerous if not known.

I would argue the paranoia leads to some accusational speech that might harm our relationships rather than help us. Jealousy is caused by paranoid thinking as well or paranoid thinking causes jealousy.

For instance early on Wednesday morning I worried about my wallet because I had had 200$ cash in it. I did not know at that moment where my wallet was. Whenever I lose something, the first part of finding that something is to remember the last place I had it. I thought and it was at the lumber store that I had my wallet. So my paranoid thinking lead me to thinking my friend had my wallet. I thought how awkward that would be for a good friend to have taken my wallet. You see this friend and I have know each other for 6 or so years and been rather regular friends. We are also both generous with each other and in fact the last thing we would do to each other would be to steal from each other. This shows how my worry about my wallet and my method of finding lost things could have made my relationship toxic. But in fact I think this way often from schizophrenia and know before I act on these paranoid thoughts to reality check and I did find my wallet soon enough too. Would it have been unlucky if I had not found my wallet? Yes it would have been and this goes to show that a person experiencing a lot of bad luck can through their normal smart thinking be seen as paranoid and accusational and not a nice social person.

I have also seen people on hospital wards get very jealous and think their partner was fooling around on them and then break the relationship up. Very sad! Jealousy and paranoia are not healthy thinking patterns.