State of Mind

SZ Suicide - Insight

This piece is for the "normal" people in order for them to understand the pain...They will know it better if they hear the song mentioned below. For the rest of us, the fight is still on! All you have got to do is believe!! Fight!

This song, Hallowed be thy name, though originally sung by Iron Maiden, shows exactly how I felt when I was suicidal, in the screaming voice of Cradle of Filth!

(It starts with the situation that I link to, then goes on to describe the emotional and mental agony that I faced, with the voices screaming to me to kill myself, believing in the grandiose delusions of being the One and seeing the Truth...though I never lost the strength and belief in the truth, always fighting...it is better to be dead than reduced to the nothingness, living and yet not alive, being like the dead and yet not die...)

" I'm waiting in my cold cell,
When the bell begins to chime,
Reflecting on my past life,
As it doesn't have much time,

'Coz at 5o'clock they take me to the gallows pole,
The sands of time for me are running low...
Running lowwww....

When the priest comes to read me the last rite,
I take look at the bars for the last site,
Of a world that has gone very wrong for me...

Could it be that there's some sort of error,
Hard to stop the surmounting terror,
Is it really the end not some crazy dream,

Somebody please tell me that I'm dreaming,
It's not so easy to stop from screaming,
But words escape me when I try to speak,
Tears they flow but why am I crying,
After all I'm not afraid of dying,
Do not believe that there never is an end...

As the guards march me out to the courtyard,
Somebody calls from a cell god be with you,
If there's a god then why has he let me dieee...
As I walk all my life drifts before me,
And though the end is near I'm not sorry,
Catch my soul its willing to fly away...

Mark my words, please believe my soul lives on,
Stop to worry now that I've gone,
I've gone beyond to see the truth...(the Truth!)

So when you know that your time is close at hand,
maybe then you will begin to understand,
life down there is just a strange illusion...

Hallowed be thy name,
Hallowed be thy name... "

Posted by puzli at January 8, 2004 04:43 AM