State of Mind

Nature Walks

Withdrawal is one of the prodomal (appearing before a relapse) symptoms of schizophrenia. It is one of the symptoms that acutely effects the patient. The patient may try to start interacting, to start going out of the house, but it is not easy to overcome. For example, the other day I went for a walk alone and I realized how difficult it was earlier for me. The whole purpose of the walk is to feel good, enjoy the nature, but the whole purpose is defeated when you are delusional and having hallucinations. I used to keep on glancing at other people hearing what was going in their minds, they were against me, abusing me, plotting against me, trying to fight me off my thoughts. The whole time you try to look at the trees around, the dogs walking, the people walking, but the whole time you keep on hearing, knowing the things that others can't hear, the walk not only becomes difficult to enjoy, rather, it becomes a nightmare...