State of Mind

One

This time, it's like a reality I cannot define. I wake up and I don't know what happened yesterday was real or not. The dreams I had in the night were real. The dreams have become real and the reality has become like a dream. With the increased meds, the silence has come back and it brings back with it the feeling you have the first time when the meds hit you, the feeling described exactly by Metallica's "one" --- here goes---

ONE
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I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me
Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up I can not see
That there is not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God,wake me

Back in the womb its much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I'll live
Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God,wake me

Now the world is gone I'm just one
Oh God, help me
Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God, help me

Darkness imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmine has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell

Posted by puzli at May 6, 2004 12:57 PM | TrackBack